10 weeks After my LAP BAND SURGERY exactly

10 weeks.

10 weeks of not doing slimming world

10 weeks of getting slimmer

10 weeks of not (well... nearly) stressing about food

10 weeks of worrying if I can really afford it!!

Ooops Too Late!

But most importantly, 10 things I like about the new me:

1.) I am happy
2.) I wear my hair down and straighten it every time I wash it
3.) I don't wear glasses any more
4.) I am a dress size smaller
5.) I am 20 pounds lighter
6.) I am more confident in my career and every other aspect of my life at the moment
7.) I feel cleaner inside my body and soul
8.) I feel like people notice me for reasons other than my fatness
9.) I dont feel like a greedy pig when I eat my dinner
10.) I feel like ME for the first time in my life

I feel good.

I am looking forward to my fill with Dr. Clayson tomorrow. I wonder how much juice hes going to plug me with. Hopefully a LOT! Tee Hee. Well at £75 a throw, its the most expensive water in the world I think! I want a good few millilitres for my money.

My last fill cost me £18.75 per ml. That's got to be more expensive than precious perfumes!

I doubt I will get 4 mls this time. No way. But maybe 2... hope so.

I also hope it lasts longer that 6 weeks. I don't really want to be trekking all the way to Tamworth every 6 weeks or so. On the other hand I do want to get thin!

The Rock - ME - The Hard Place

Went out this morning with Rebs for half an hour. Then we came back and had coffee and cake with her hubby and DS in a little place that's probably a bar in the evenings, but during the day has WOW sofas to lounge around on and was really nice and airy and calm and quiet but classy - if you get my drift. It wasn't grotty like some places I've been in that are clubs or bars in the evening, but it was much more classy than say Costa Coffee, Starbucks or Pret... etc. The prices were, however, much more reasonable than those "cost a lot" coffee bars. It was somewhere where I really had never noticed before, and probably would never have gone into had I not been with them. It was a really nice surprise. I will definitely be frequenting the place again soon!
It was particularly lovely because her husband had a massive brain hemorrhage a couple of years back and is still quite damaged by it, but he has got so much better, and he leaned out of the car window and said to me "Hey, I have heard that there is a secret society in town." "Now, don't tell anyone, but this secret society have their meetings in this place I know, and they serve you..." sly peek about to check for listeners..."coffee... shhh and sometimes.. cakes! shhh."
It was so nice to see him having a laugh and a joke and inviting us too. A lot of people don't want to go out during the day with me because I always have DS with me and I think they get worried about what people think. Obviously I don't have a tongue in my head to explain why he is not in the government state training programme being force fed boring crud like all the other drones. Yeah. But I really do think that these particular ones prefer to have their adult time, and the school to them is like the best baby sitting service about! Its free!! Yay! I don't think everyone's like this... just these 'special people' I know.

Anyway, that's my view, and I keep it to myself most of the time. But I believe that kids are better off with their parents. I mean, I would not be home educating my child if I didn't would I! It would be a bit stupid of me to extol the virtues of the school system when I don't believe in them.

That's why I think its really brave when people say to me "I would love to, but I know I just couldn't do it."

Well done. Seriously. That's a straight up honest answer right there.

Its the people who say "I think its terrible, you child will be damaged socially and not learn anything" or words to that effect that I dont believe. I think they protest too much. Obviously if that was the case it would be at least un popular let alone illegal. Those people I believe are simply trying to affirm that that they did the right thing. Ostriches.

"Kids are going to be OK in school."
"Kids do well in school."
"Kids are happy in school."

If they say it enough times it might turn out to be true.

YAAAA totally of topic. But I don't rant about home ed at all.. in fact I don't think that I have mentioned it before on this blog. So now you all know.

I don't really care what other people do to be honest. What they choose to do with their children is their business. I just wish they wouldn't care so much about what I do. They didn't before when I ran with the river. Now everyone and his flaming dog has an opinion. I always find it odd.

The next time I meet someone and they don't have a child with them I will say...
"Wheres your child?"
and when they say "At school"
I will reply "Oh really? Wow. How normal. so how did you find their teacher?"
and when they reply "What? He just goes to the local school..."
I shall say "Oh right. That's a shame. How did you match their classmates?"
and when they say "What?"
I will ask them if they checked out the other children who were going to be mixing with their angels. When they have to say "No I just signed on the dotted of X schools register"
I will say "How spontaneous of you. So daring. Don't you think your child will suffer socially? I mean what about when it goes to senior school and mixes with all those druggies and smokers and gets beat up at break?"
"Oh well I don't worry about that kind of this because little johnny is a really good boy"
"But he doesn't have the chance to mix with any other kind of people other than the same age group..."
"err umm er umm"

Basically I get the reverse of this.... Practically every day.

I am sick of it.

I tell you what. I am GLAD my child will be socially challenged if that's what he has to put up with at school. Trouble is he's started to talk to people of all ages now he doesn't sit with a group of drones of the same age all day long. Is that a cause for concern?

I teach 20 kids music. They can't look you in the eye. they can't hold a conversation. They look at their boots. Their faces are dull and tired. And that is just a sample from our local area. maybe every other kid in the whole world is not like this... but I beg to differ.

People actually comment on how DS is with adults. How his manners are impeccable and how different he is from other children. Then in the other breath they are dismissing home education as rash and a disaster waiting to happen. Makes sense doesn't it.

grrrr. Can you tell I got on my high horse? Got off now. Its in the stable. I really don't want to open up a debate about home-ed v. schools. Home ed will win hands down in my book any day of the week.

Doesn't matter what anyone says. It shouldn't matter what I say either if you are convinced school is right for you kids. Get my drift?

Please no one take offence. I just never EVER get to view my side of things. I love blogging. No one can shout you down and you get to say everything all at once without people shutting off their minds.

Anyway, I am worn out typing that lot. I promise I will get back to fat fighting tomorrow. Especially as I will yet again be on LIQUIDS! AHHHRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!! NOOOOO!