8 Weeks + 5 days

Woo Hoo. I lost another pound this week.

I am so pleased. I really was not looking forward to today's weigh in because I felt I had had a really bad week.

Is it the same for all Bandits?

I feel like this:

I eat something, later something else, later something else and at the end of the day, because I haven't been following 'a diet' I feel like I am a failure and that because I feel full I must have totally blown the weight loss that week... And that is then perpetual all week.

However, when I look back at what I have actually eaten during the day I am ALWAYS shocked at the small quantity. I FEEL like I have eaten as much as I would have pre banding, because I FEEL the same fullness... But I really have cut down.

This is a head-messer! My feelings about how well I am doing are so off square. I have to remember that I must trust my band, and not my head, otherwise I am still in this crazy world of food obsession.

I LOVE MY BAND

I am so thrilled that this is working for me. I feel like a normal person, in a normal persons body who can eat normal human being things and not worry. Its like a MIRACLE has happened. I am totally not exaggerating either. It really is my own personal Miracle.

I just have to deal with the psycho part of me that keeps trying to do itself down and be negative.

I am going to try very hard to keep positive all week.

Next week I have decided I am not going to slimmingworld as it is now a waste of money. I do not need to spend £4 odd getting weighed. I can do it for 20p at the local chemist, so that's what I will do. Next Monday I will weigh in at the chemist. I weighed in today at the chemist before Slimmingworld and the scales are bang on the same, so I know I am getting a proper reading.

I didn't want to just go next week and suddenly lose 5 pounds because they weigh light, or put on 2 because they weigh heavy. They are exactly the same as I am used to.

I have lost 34 pounds (2 stone 6) exactly now since I joined slimmingworld 2 years ago.
21 and a half pounds (1 stone 7 and a half) of that has been since banding!!

So there we go.

I am thrilled.

Oh, and I also have a fill booked for 3:30pm Thursday 26th April with Dr Clayson. Exactly 6 weeks later to the day since my first fill, just like he said!!!

This will be the fill I have whilst I am away in Sri Lanka. I need a good one!! When I get back from Sri Lanka I can get another one. Goody!

Update:
Have not had much to eat today... strange. I am wracking my brains trying to think what I have had. Ummm....

Oh yeah, no brekkie because of Fat Club, but I had 2 slices of bread for lunch with olive oil and balsamic vinegar dip.

Dinner, as DH is away tonight, was Chinese take away. Yummmmmm
It was the first time I had had Chinese since banding. Properly that is. I think I had bit of a chicken ball a month or so ago when DS had them one night.

The bill was less than £15 for the first time EVER!!! Unbelievable!
We ordered quarter crispy duck pancakes, sweet and sour chicken balls and seaweed. That was it. DS and I shared all this grub, of which half the duck went to the cats and there are still some chicken balls in the fridge. I AM SPEECHLESS!!

I L O V E MY BAND

I would normally order ... seriously:
seaweed,
quarter (or even half) crispy duck,
Singapore fried noodles,
Sweet and sour chicken Hong Kong style,
Prawn crackers,
Mixed Hors'deurves

and it would all be eaten between the three of us... with mine being the larger share. An order from our Chinese take away has certainly has never been in the £teens.

If you are thinking of having a lap Band... GET IT DONE!!! I wish wish wish wish I had done this years ago!!!

I am not deprived in any way, I love my life and I could cry with glee and the normal-ness and lack of pressure of my eating.

This has changed my life already in just 8 short weeks.