Brighter...

Seriously, how can I stay mad for long when I have a son as crazy as this? And no, he didn't have ANY clothes on at all! In winter! Madness.

Thanks for you lovely comments. Believe it or not they did help, just knowing someone could empathise and not offer a solution. There is no solution to this other than just keep on keeping on.

Today has definitely been better. I have had my protein shakes and also some home made watercress soup and everything is flowing freely just as it should do. Not feeling hungry, just like I shouldn't do. Able to take my meds, and feeling brighter all round just like things should be.

Yummy watercress soup recipe:

3 veg stock cubes
4 cloves garlic rough chopped
1.5litres water
pinch salt
1/2tsp pepper
pinch nutmeg
1 Boquet Garni
1 large bag watercress

Boil all the ingredients for about 30 minutes until garlic is soft and
then put in the watercress. cook for a further 5 mins and then serve. Grate some
cheese ontop for lusciousness.

Yesterday evening, I managed to get some macaroni and cheese down which was amazing. its like the band suddenly goes "Ok, lets let her have something to eat now. She has suffered enough". And to answer Caroline, yes, I do have to pay for fills. If I have half a ml out it costs £100, and I don't need fluid out. I honestly don't. Its just sometimes when I don't think right, and go in like a bull in a china shop I end up tighter than a DA. I should just keep by band head on and not forget. Easier said than done though right?

Amazing Macaroni cheese recipe:

macaroni, fried onions, cheese sauce all mixed together and then just before you bung it in the oven dish, mix in 1 packet of Paxo (turkey/chicken stuffing dry packet mix) and then put it in the oven dish, grate cheese over and grill.

UN BELIEVABLY YUMMY even though most of you probably can't eat much of it, its great, easy and cheap for the rest of the family.

So 7.5mls is honestly I think perfect for me. I am not eating much, not hungry and only occasionally have trouble. I have had a trouble free 6 weeks since my last fill. I have lost 7 pounds in that time too. I must look at the bigger picture. I need to give it a positive swing. The last 2 days were just a blip. Next time this happens I will remember this and just weather the storm and go for fluids. I made a jump reaction last January when this happened and I was wide open afterwards and gained quickly. I just need to adjust to the band and get on with it.

Today, TB came over and we booked their flights to China to see her son. I am not going with them which is a bit of a shame as its somewhere I would love to go, but thanks to Nosy Neighbour I have to buy a garage conversion instead of trips abroad. Rubbish. She is really nervous about it as its a really long flight to a bit of the world that's not a normal destination and knows its gonna be a culture shock. Just booking it will help her as she has been fretting for weeks knowing she should go, but just couldn't bring herself to book the thing, and now its done. I am sure she is going to have an amazing time. Not jealous at all!

TB's DH also laid the pipe work for the radiator in the new room. I am glad that's done so that it's one less job to think about for the moment. The builder is going to start work on the conversion on 2nd November... not long now.

I have just realised that I am coming up to my 2 year band-redo-iversary. Maybe this is something I can think about in a positive way and try and think... this IS the year I am going to do this thing now. I am tight, eating less, found protein drinks and am ready to burn some fat.

Lets go.