I allowed myself some nice things

I really don't want to say that I have been BAD. I don't want to say that I have been NAUGHTY or something. Its so loaded with guilt and self loathing and I think, being someone who eats emotionally, its not a good thing for my psyche to think like that in any case.

So, I allowed my hands to put things into my mouth last night. It seems to be a patten, that when I can't eat, or don't eat (drink) properly during the day, then I crave food at night so much that I can't stand it, and eat more than I should.

Yesterday was one such day. I didn't get anything to eat all day because of the various things that I blogged about yesterday, and when I could eat, I couldn't...!

So last night whilst watching Atonement, a bottle of red, and a bag of minstrels crept quietly into my gullet. Then we decided to watch Hot Fuzz too, and during that, a slice of the leftover pie and 2 or 3 potatoes and carrots got down in there too.

So yesterday I probably had a normal amount of calories for the day, as opposed to the usual 2 protein shakes and small meal I have been having.

Anyway, during yesterdays trips all about the place, I came across this tub or fruit compote. Yummy! It goes nicely with my vanilla protein shake, blends to moosh and slips down a treat. Gives me a few extra calories, but actually not much as its surprisingly low. Also it's getting a touch boring having just chocolate, or vanilla or the 'way out there' coffee flavour I make myself by adding a teaspoon of coffee to the vanilla one.